tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post116506500499602104..comments2023-06-08T07:58:17.128-05:00Comments on Nate Nate Roller Skate: A Nutjob in a Pear TreeLaurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07471420264228948843noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165291768513578872006-12-04T22:09:00.000-06:002006-12-04T22:09:00.000-06:00Oh Laura - Christmas was impossibly hard last year...Oh Laura - Christmas was impossibly hard last year. As you said, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I tried doing everything new - nothing the same as the year before when I was pregnant with Thomas - and I dragged myself through the holidays in a haze of sorrow. I had to pretend more than I ever believed possible and I didn't breathe a sigh of relief until it was over.<BR/><BR/>If it helps at all, this is totally normal, these awful feelings your having right now. The firsts are more painful than I ever imagined and it feels like it takes the strength of hercules to make it through sometimes. <BR/><BR/>I wish there was more I could do or say, but from experience I know that time has made it easier for me to deal with holidays - and has allowed me to find moments of joy in them again too.<BR/><BR/>I know it'll be the same for you again one day. Just be kind to yourself and do whatever you need to do to find some peace - and know that I'm thinking of you.<BR/><BR/>((((HUGS)))msfitzitahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17174138130763427353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165205099890879482006-12-03T22:04:00.000-06:002006-12-03T22:04:00.000-06:00oh darlin' it is just BRUTAL what you are going th...oh darlin' it is just BRUTAL what you are going through; the trip down horrifying memory lane. i didn't lose charlotte until 3 days after xmas but christmas was retroactively ruined. the whole deal just reminds me of the disaster that was about to come. being pregnant again helps but also renders me vulnerable to another BFN (big f*cking nightmare). <BR/><BR/>I feel for you so deeply. I wish there was something i could say to help you feel better. better times have got to be on the way for you. how could they not be?whatthef*ckhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06504688509955868945noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165110285824231072006-12-02T19:44:00.000-06:002006-12-02T19:44:00.000-06:00I'm glad to see you posting, though... and i am im...I'm glad to see you posting, though... and i am impressed with your story of your outdoor lights! I demand a picture...and send your hubby my way. Victorian xmas and not an outside light on my house -- i bought them, but my dh didn't bother to put them up, and i was not about to go crawling about on the roof or anything...so nary an outside light for me. <BR/><BR/>Christmas bites. It is not so bad for me now as it was (this is the 4th Christmas without Nicolas), but it still bites.katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16536809590856333391noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165108817450387382006-12-02T19:20:00.000-06:002006-12-02T19:20:00.000-06:00I completely understand how you feel about Xmas an...I completely understand how you feel about Xmas and like you and Kathy mcc, also haven't felt the xmas spirirt since I lost my boy. When I read your posts I always think about how well you are doing. I mean it's only been 9 mths since you lost Nate and 2 mths since you lost Chip. This is all very fresh and recent and raw. If I were you I would probably be boycotting xmas and forgoing a new sofa to avoid all those converstaions with people that last saw you last xmas BUT I think if you can handle doing the work and seeing all those people then more power to you and you are one awesome chick in my book. It might be a cathartic and healing time for you. Wishing you well and thinking of you.<BR/><BR/>Oh and hoping you will post a photo of your husbands xmas lights. I love that sort of stuff. but it's a tradition that doesn't go on much around my neighbourhood or city. I live in an urban city area. (and we're in begining of a long, hot, drought-ridden Aussie summer, so it's not similar xmas traditions here at all lol)Clarehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08186138257956053203noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165088612422063792006-12-02T13:43:00.000-06:002006-12-02T13:43:00.000-06:00I totally, totally, get where you are coming from....I totally, <I>totally</I>, get where you are coming from.<BR/><BR/>If you feel like, email me. If not, know I am thinking of you (and will probably email you!).<BR/><BR/>hugs.delphihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07529670960180261467noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165075054968792312006-12-02T09:57:00.000-06:002006-12-02T09:57:00.000-06:00How about a few beers? I am always good for that....How about a few beers? I am always good for that.<BR/><BR/>Christmas hasn't been the same for me since I lost my girls...even though I have Kam and he was born in December, it's just hard. Still. I wish it wasn't because I always used to just love Christmas, but now it just gets me feeling sad.<BR/><BR/>(((hugs))) Hope the "busy" factor and the fun outdoor decor is at least helping a bit.Kathy McChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03173765251704625998noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24468572.post-1165072893458971682006-12-02T09:21:00.000-06:002006-12-02T09:21:00.000-06:00I don't like eggnog, but if you've got some brandy...I don't like eggnog, but if you've got some brandy and don't mind a little company, I'll go nutty with you.Catherinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01160908955133304449noreply@blogger.com