A had a dream the other night that I didn't mention. I had fallen asleep on my own, and I'm not in the habit of doing that right now. I'm off the Vistaril--now my drug of choice is Benedryl. (Well, it's allergy season and I sleep with the windows open--so I think that's a pretty good cover.) So I wonder if I've ever had dreams like this before, but was just too gorked out to remember them.
The dream started out with my springer spaniel, Flossie, who died a couple of years ago. In the dream, I was trimming Flossie's nails and then left the room. When I came back, there was a little boy there in blue overalls. He had his back to me and he had his little arms wrapped around Flossie's neck and his face buried in her fur. He was giving her a great big squeezy hug. The little boy looked like he may have been about a year old, able to stand, but still kinda tottery. Flossie looked like she was enjoying this big hug, but I said, "Little boy, watch out! She's cranky and she might bite!" And I woke up.
We buried Nate in blue overalls, maybe I was just remembering that. But I'd like to think that they both came by to let me know that they are alright.
I lost my baby son, Nathaniel, on February 3rd, 2006, four days after his birth. I'm a mommy in mourning and this is my pensieve.
About Me
- Laura
- I'm a 33 year old professional flutist married to an accountant and living in southern Missouri. I lost my son, Nate, to a placental abruption at 40 weeks. Hope was found and lost again with a miscarriage in September 2006. On October 18th, 2007, Nate's little brother,Ben, arrived safely. I'm learning to be a mom to two boys--one here and one there.
Love you, Natey.
My Daily Reads
- Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Loss Blog Directory
- A Pregnancy After a Stillbirth ~ Monica
- Certainly Not Cool Enough to Blog~Kristin
- Dead Baby Jokes ~ Niobe
- Discovering Me~Michelle
- Eight Million Pieces~Delphi
- Everything is Under Control~Catherine
- Healing Arts~Artblog
- It's Really Me~BethGo
- Life After...~Nervous Kitty
- Life Can Be a Shit ~ Brenda
- Little Birdie
- The Mad Mommy
- Missing Speed Jr.~Emma's Mum
- Moksha~Rosepetal
- Natalie & Julian~Alysse
- Nicolas' Garden~Kate
- No Matter How Small~Aurelia Cotta
- No, I will never be "over" it~Julie
- Rach: The Wandering Blog
- Ryan Was Here~Sherry
- Spiraling Into Control~Bronwyn
- Subtle Shade of Green ~ Kathy McC
- Surviving My Loss~Sarah
- The Sensual Life ~ Roxanne
- Three Minute Palaver~Clare
- Trying to Have a Baby That Lives~WTF
Cooking Stuff
Get My Knit On
4 comments:
Those are the dreams that make me want to stay asleep forever.
You gave me shivers.
But you didn't bury Nate as a toddler, did you? I think he just wants you to know that they're both ok. :o)
I totally believe that people visit us in our dreams, just to say hello and to let us know that they're okay and that they're with us - always.
I'm so glad Nate came to you. And Flossie too!
(((((((HUGS)))))
Hi
Just reading your blog for the first time and read post entitled "Sweet Dreams". My daughter has been gone for almost 5 months and I have only dreamt of her once, where she came alive while I was holding her. I have just read a book called "Hello from Heaven" by Bill and Judy Guggenheim. It deals with after death communication and is very enlightening. Good luck with your pregnancy.
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