One year ago today...
The first day of my maternity leave.
The day that it was really sinking in that I was bringing you home and soon, too.
I finally finished your little apple hat on this day, a year ago.
How many more sleeps would it be until you were in my arms? Just one, as it would turn out.
I had that sleep and you were gone, your little body there, your sweet soul was not.
I'm so sorry, my love. I'm so sorry that my body failed you, my beautiful boy.
Every minute of every day, I think of you. I never thought that I could love anyone as much as I do you.
My sweet boy.
I lost my baby son, Nathaniel, on February 3rd, 2006, four days after his birth. I'm a mommy in mourning and this is my pensieve.
About Me
- Laura
- I'm a 33 year old professional flutist married to an accountant and living in southern Missouri. I lost my son, Nate, to a placental abruption at 40 weeks. Hope was found and lost again with a miscarriage in September 2006. On October 18th, 2007, Nate's little brother,Ben, arrived safely. I'm learning to be a mom to two boys--one here and one there.
Love you, Natey.
My Daily Reads
- Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Loss Blog Directory
- A Pregnancy After a Stillbirth ~ Monica
- Certainly Not Cool Enough to Blog~Kristin
- Dead Baby Jokes ~ Niobe
- Discovering Me~Michelle
- Eight Million Pieces~Delphi
- Everything is Under Control~Catherine
- Healing Arts~Artblog
- It's Really Me~BethGo
- Life After...~Nervous Kitty
- Life Can Be a Shit ~ Brenda
- Little Birdie
- The Mad Mommy
- Missing Speed Jr.~Emma's Mum
- Moksha~Rosepetal
- Natalie & Julian~Alysse
- Nicolas' Garden~Kate
- No Matter How Small~Aurelia Cotta
- No, I will never be "over" it~Julie
- Rach: The Wandering Blog
- Ryan Was Here~Sherry
- Spiraling Into Control~Bronwyn
- Subtle Shade of Green ~ Kathy McC
- Surviving My Loss~Sarah
- The Sensual Life ~ Roxanne
- Three Minute Palaver~Clare
- Trying to Have a Baby That Lives~WTF
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4 comments:
Hugs Laura...big, warm, loving hugs.
Thinking of you and your sweet darling Nate. I'm so sorry. Sending you big (((hugs))) and wishing I could do more.
Much love to you during this difficult time.
Oh Laura, I'm so so sorry that Nate isn't here. It wasn't meant to be like this. Or it was and we just don't know why, why, WHY.
*Tears of sadness* fall for you and sweet Nate, that you are not together.
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