Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Little Brother

I walked into Ben's bedroom this afternoon. He'd been too quiet and I wanted to see what he'd gotten into. He had his back to me, standing there and digging through his baskets of weird, random toys that I keep in there. Plastic cups, happy meal toys, junk like that. He was puttering so quietly and looked so small standing there. Alone. For the first time it really struck me how unfair it was that he got cheated out of a big brother and he doesn't even know it yet. To watch him play all by himself makes my heart hurt.

3 comments:

delphi said...

It makes my heart absolutely BLEED every time that thought creeps into my head. Which is practically every day. To say it is horrible doesn't come close. I so understand what you are saying here...

MB said...

It's funny. I look at Grace and Nat try to play together, but the age gap is just so huge. They try, but really, they are just too far apart. That gap kills me. There is someone there, someone who could fill that hole. Someone who does in her own way, but she's not here to play Barbies or watch Little Einstein videos with her sisters.

Hugs, sister. Ben will have little sister to dig through those baskets with next year and hopefully, his realization of what he's missing will wait until he's a little older and wiser.

Sherry said...

I think about this, too, as Megan becomes more mobile and curious. It must be a drag for her to have mom and dad, rather than an exuberant big brother to wreak havoc with.

I hate that for our kiddos. =(