My period started with a vengeance this morning--5 days late. Enough time to make me wonder, get me excited and take a pregnancy test. And of course it was negative. Of course. We haven't been trying, in fact we've been super careful. But I thought, since I had my baby taken away from me, wouldn't it be great if I just turned up pregnant? No effort, no worry, just pregnant. Like I had some kind of cosmic coupon--sorry about that last one, Laura. This one is on us. Why can't I just behave normally anymore?
This whole thing is such a bitch. A big, heaving, snarling bitch, and I didn't sign up for this.